Archive for September, 2008

Misc TIA Notes

Last week I did some super-deep work, very liberating.

This week It started poking me again. Huge. I’m off-track somehow, It says. Have you ever had the feeling someone behind you was staring at you, and you turn to catch them square in the eyes? That’s how it’s felt – that visceral. That evident. I keep turning around, but I haven’t seen what I know is meant for me to see.


Then last night Art Brock reminded me of practice groups, and work I’d done with practice groups came to mind. Thank you, Art, for helping me uncover the seed of passion that lives now, still, despite my ability to inadvertently get lost in the mechanics while I’m trying to live in Service to deliver It.

Then this morning, this came clear, pouring out of me like a fountain.

I’m tracking it here to help me integrate it into materials I share later.

Wanna come play in this together?

Still listening,

2008 Sept 24th – The TIA(tm) Path


  • We’re ultimate creators. Everything we experience is a holographic product of our inner world.
  • Address issues internally and external “reality” shape shifts.
  • The formula for Change, Transformation, Evolution, Self-Actualization, Enlightenment, World Peace:

Bodymind Contractions … Resistence … Fear
Authentically Addressed … Evaporated … Resolved
Degree of Change, Transformation, Evolution,
Self-Actualization, Enlightenment,
World Peace

  • The portal to resolution is “needs consciousness”.
  • The steps to resolution can be found in type dynamics and “3-Breath Work”.
  • We need community of practice to go deeper and see deeper than we can see / go by ourselves. The eyeball can’t see itself. Thresholds of challenge beyond our skill require others holding the container while we do the work.
  • Bodywork is critical for enhancing release. Listening to the body locates release opportunities.
  • We are all Face of Spirit, the expression of It more or less contorted through ego / personality / bodymind contractions. For purer expression of Spirit, resolve / attend to contractions.
  • As purer Spirit, we gain access to 3 bodies of awareness, influence and guidance.
  • At birth we have a “dharma”, a set of bodymind challenges, a set of natural inclinations to contract. With life experiences we can gather more, especially if in painful experiences we recycled pain rather than released it.
  • To see your contractions:

……..look to your recurring issues / challenges
……..look to your rules / contractions
……..look to your type preferences / spiral center of gravity / birth number, etc.
……..look to your discontents / unfulfilled dreams

  • Thoughts reveal emotion. Emotion is an indicator of health, a symptom of resolution or the need for resolution.
  • Through best practices on 7 aspects we can consciously peel away our own bodymind blocks to Show As Spirit and shine as the Lights We Most Deeply Are.
  • Even as contraction, even as the unconscious playing out of dharma, we are teachers and angels for each other.
  • The fuel for the hard work of Change, Transformation, Evolution, Self-Actualization, Enlightenment, World Peace – is Gratitude and Celebration.
  • All reality is a liquid dream, a holographic representation of contraction and resolution. With skill you can transform “reality” overnight.
  • This can be easy. It takes action, it takes commitment, but it can be easy. When we’re on track, even release that feels “hard” feels like “sweet pain”.
  • All the challenges we face personally, interpersonally, culturally and globally come back to Spirit reaching toward evolution, and producing symptoms to show where there is contraction. We have everything we need to resolve all world issues. All we experience today globally – wars, starvation, economic crises, all come back to Spirit Emergent trying to resolve contraction.

If this inspires and/or confuses you, and you want to learn more, please email or call me.

If this makes sense to you and you want to collaborate toward change, transformation, evolution, and enlightenment in yourself, your relationships, community, or on the planet, please email me at mayagailtaylor at gmail dot com .

Humbly yours
and in Sacred Service,
— mayagayam

Woof and the Universe

I posted these comments on my last post, then realized they got buried (as a comment! go figure!)

So I’m copying them here in deep gratitude and celebration…



Holy Cats.

Holographic Universe, Batman.

No sooner did I post this post, than did I receive (thank you Universe) a Sacred and Rattling and Mind-obliterating set of responses.

Mind obliterating. Just what I needed.
By the way, if you’ve ever heard of Millman’s “Way of the Peaceful Warrior” and haven’t yet stumbled on his, “The Life You Were Born To Live”, I highly recommend it. As another type-dynamics construct goes, I’m nonetheless having my socks blown off by it.

Exactly what I needed.

Exactly what I asked for.
Thank you, Universe…and the Gods and Goddesses that let It through.

– Gail

PS: to be more specific, my bodymind fear and insecurities are being pulled apart by the seams, more deeply than ever before. Something along these lines:

worry/insecurity/fear = wanting safety

oh right, as The Eternal, there is no such thing as unsafe.
And together they danced, my fear and The Eternal Through Me,

over and over

and i saw legions of layers of me doing fear

and i cried, exploded, melted, collapsed

i held the practice, “accepting trust”

and opening into surrender,

and watched more layers of fear collapse into It.

i’m still collapsing

into the void of

Lost Relationship Prescription?

For those of you who know me really well, you know that I have a very vivid and detailed dream life. It informs me, guides me, and I like to say it helps my brain to “defrag”.

Well I had a defrag dream last night. About Grady. Again.

If you know me really really really well, then you know that Grady (for better or worse) was the great love of my life, albeit a relationship of only a year, which has been over since April (please don’t ask me why yet – if you don’t know already, I’m still not yet ready to talk more about it).

I added the dream to my digital journal this morning, but what I realize is that my brain is still trying to debug him from my system.

No it’s not that. The dream was about being with him again. About enjoying the sweet things I cherished, like the contours of his face. The joy of just *being* together. It was my subconscious trying to give me what I so miss; to soothe me.

In this relationship, I was fully me – fully the kind of person I’d want to be in relationship – more wholly and deeply than I’d ever been before. In this relationship I was more given than I’d ever been in my life – fully given.

I’ve grieved him over and over. I’ve come to peace about his choices, and mine. I’ve forgiven his mistakes, and mine.

And yet still my unconscious is poking at me and making me see where I still ache to be with him.

I’d given myself permission to take six months get over him. But clearly I’m still enmeshed. I keep hearing the echoes of his last words to me, “How can we end this in a way that honors the sacred we shared?” and his subsequent behavior (not responding to any contact from me – after 3 tries I stopped trying, I’ve not heard a peep from him since).

It’s been six f*^%$ months. When will I be over him??

This is deep enough that I’ve written off sexuality for the time being – frankly the thought of being sexual with anyone disgusts me – which for me is absolutely unheard of. This isn’t the longest I’ve gone without taking a lover (the longest being a year), but it’s the longest I’ve felt this alienated from my sexuality. Clearly this breakup hurt and continues to hurt – deeply.

I’ve even tried all my own methods for healing. I can peel back layers of the onion, but evaporating the subject seems impossible. So I step back and let it be, telling myself not to force it. But 6 months?? It was only a year relationship!

Meanwhile my Witness is noticing how much my body/mind continues to learn because of that relationship, and I believe in a bigger meaning to all this, something transpersonal, something I can’t yet see.

But I’m still confused about why I still have heartbreak and dreams of him and yearning for what we had, even after all this time.

You’ve had break-ups before!

What’s YOUR prescription for mending a broken heart?

Both/And and John's Brilliant Reminders

This was so delicious I *had* to include it as a stand-alone post.

This was a comment about my post here.

And what I wrote in response.

Cherishing the multiplicity of things,


Anonymous John Curtis said…

The Secret is the latest and by far the worst example of a HIGHLY profitable trend where self-help gurus with fabricated new age titles and little relevant education, credentials or legitimate expertise brainwash us into believing that they know what is best for us, our marriages and our families.

Often their only contribution to society is introducing some exotic sounding, new age philosophy. However, they often cleverly form an incestuous group of like-minded “experts” who cross-promote each other by swearing their success is due to following the beliefs of another member of their “cult!” All the while, they ply the airwaves jockeying for an ever-larger audience by appearing in the national media to garner third-party endorsements.

The Self-Help Movement has become the Self-Destruct Movement by diminishing or destroying our critical thinking skills to choose and evolve on our own. We have given up the freedom to build healthy lives, marriages and families based on our unique history and life experience. Instead many victims, blinded to the value of their own life experiences, are attracted to the latest secret in self-help, in an attempt to find out what they should think, feel and how they should act… this is the definition of a cult.

The solution is a return to our (common) senses! The best way out of this learned “self-helplessness” is to go cold turkey. Stop following ALL self-help gurus now. Begin, instead, to reclaim your natural, God-given ability to think for yourself. The common sense that was once readily available to all of us is still there free of charge and waiting to be applied to just about any challenge we might face in life… all you have to do is use it.

Please, let’s all work together to stop the flock of “sheepeople” who blindly move from one UNPROVEN concept to the next, looking for the answers to life’s challenges that you already possess and that is the OBVIOUS!

September 7, 2008 3:07 PM


Blogger Gail Taylor – said…

I relish your critical thinking and discernments, John. Brilliant.

I know this probably doesn’t apply to you, but I’ve heard lots of people bashing the work of some-person-or-other who’s doing their best to contribute (my friends Ken Wilber, David Deida, Marshall Rosenberg, and many other thinkers I know were all bashed by many), somewhere or other.

Even the writers of “The Secret” are TRYING to make a contribution.

And some people DO benefit from that bit!

And that bit, combined with many other bits, I believe, moves the world needle of consciousness forward through evolution.

I wonder, of all of the people bashing one thing or another, how many of them are capable of “Both/And” thinking.

(Which reminds me, I had a post I wanted to write about that! Thank you for the reminder!!)

Both/And – y’know, instead of Either/Or thinking (ex: This Sucks, That’s Great, Run From All That Sucks)…(aka Good/Bad Right/Wrong duality-based arguments that can happen ad-infinausium even beyond war and death) —

Both/And – This AND that. Taking the gold nuggets that DO work for you, and just using the “law of two feet” on the rest (walk away and go find other nuggets that work better for you — and leave what you don’t like to the people who DO benefit – to benefit).

In other words, remembering that just because it’s not the “end-all” for you, doesn’t mean it HAS to be the “end all” at all. For anyone. And that doesn’t make it worthless.

But then again, our world wouldn’t be what it is without people pushing against things they don’t love and resisting them with high-volume screaming warnings; where else would we find opposing views to chew on?

Anyway, thank you for reminding me to me to post the Both/And concept! I cherish your intelligent insights!

And thank you for reminding us all to think!

Admiring your contribution and your willingness to put it out there!!

Sending blessings,

Lou's "moist"

A friend sent me this poem, and I found it so fun and delightful, I was moved to share it.

Thank you Lou!!!


i wish you were a
goldfish, yes, I’d hoist you round:
glass bowled orange sun

— Lou Rehder

a loving "no"

a loving “no”

i so, so much want the promise of what you have to offer
oh boy do i.

i also want to trust you, 
      for me to trust you, i need to feel your love in your strength

i felt your sword and your capacity for hardness
      for me to trust you, i also need to experience your equanimity 

i felt your drive and your capacity
      for me to trust you, i also need to feel your presence 

i felt your interest for ‘getting in my pants”, and appreciated your playful humor
      to trust you, i also need to feel your reverence 

so wonderfully enjoying your strength, your capacity, your drive,
your ability to make hard lines,
your capacity to “test” me….
to aggressively confront…
or to knowingly walk away….
i cherish this part of your masculine.

and with this dynamic alone, i don’t wish to play.

meanwhile the child in me 
      that feared my father, 
      so afraid of him leaving me or dismissing me,
feared standing up for what i want

i’m no longer afraid.

i cherish your strength, your hardness, your capacity.

and – for our collaboration – 
i yearn for more than that 
      more humanity
      more divinity
      more power – a power so full it can be chivalrous
      in service, rather than touting its greatness

      more soul.

if we’re to unite in vision and action,
from you
i lovingly invite nothing less
i lovingly invite


Transform "The Secret" To Results in 30 Minutes Or Less

Are you one of my friends who’s hooked on “The Secret”?

Or are you a critic of “The Secret”?

I like “The Secret”, within reason. Just like the book, “Think And Grow Rich”, and the book, “The Science of Getting Rich”, I won’t deny that how we think effects what we do and how we do it. Where ever we go, there we are, and there our beliefs are that come with us.

However, I also think that the concept, “Thoughts are Things” only partly gets the job done. I’ve lots of friends who subscribe to, “The Secret” who are still “trying” to get what they want.

Like many other practices, I think it’s necessary, but insufficient.

Here’s what I mean – in short —

  • Affirmations without action risk producing nothing but self-chatter.
  • Action without connection to the driving value risks becoming tedious drudgery and ‘have to’s.
  • Understanding the driving values without *experiencing* it viscerally risks living as cognitive reporting without the life juice of emotion.

You’ve heard me talk about this quad before (values, thoughts, action, emotion) if you’ve taken my 10-Minute Manifestor ™ course.

And you’ve heard me talk about the whole system of you (mind, body, spirit, heart, gut, action, environment) if you’ve done anything with The Integrated Approach (TIA – “TEE-ah”).

Meanwhile, here’s a way you can Transform “The Secret” To Results in 30 Minutes Or Less!


    1. Decide what it is you want to manifest. Your response might be something like, “more love”, “more money”, or “more delight about my job”.


  • Transform the “more” into measurables. How will you know when you’ve landed? How much? By when? Your response might be something like, “A life partner before Dec 2009” or “$10K more income by Nov. 15th” or “I rank myself at a 7 or above of delight (on a scale of 10) about my job by this time next week”.



  • Name 1-3 underlying values you’re trying to fulfill with this desire. (For a list of core motives, underlying values, universal needs, go to page 2 of this document)



  • For 90 seconds, experience the joy, delight and fulfillment of what it looks like when you’ve ALREADY experienced fulfillment of #1. What do you feel? Where in your body do you feel it? What’s different about your posture, your emotions, how you think, how you talk, or how you act? How are others treating you differently? How does that feel? Stay with this until you experience the delight at a 7 or above (on a scale of 10).



  • This is the important part: As soon as you have hit your 7-or-above on #5, go do something right now that is precisely what you’d be doing when you are already fulfilled on this thing that you want. This isn’t about doing something *toward* getting what you want. You can (and likely will) do that later. This is about embodying that you are already there, right now. If your desire was for “more love”, maybe right now you’ll spend 10 minutes journaling and cherishing how fulfilling it is to have so much love in your life. If your desire was for “more money”, maybe what you’d do right now is go relax in the sunshine for 10 minutes and enjoy the breeze – now that you have what you need you can rest. If your desire was for “more delight about work”, maybe what you’ll do right now is a bit more work you love, because that’s what you’d do right now if you were in love with your work.


By combining “The Secret” with complementary practices from other domains, we get a tool that gets the job done more quickly, more effectively, and with longer-lasting results. How else can you “melt the ice cube from all sides”(tm) ?

Try it and tell me your results, below!!


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