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Oh Rocky!

I’ve just seen Tim Curry in Rocky Horror for the first time, and spent days basking in the companionship of the Gnostic, Kabbalistic, Hermetic esoteric¬†message. I too remember doing the time warp into this rocky horror science fiction show for the thrills! And just recently, after years of wanting to return to the Trans-sexual, I saw blue skies through my tears, and decided I might actually like to stay. If you experienced this transmission from the movie too, let’s talk!

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Big Changes – an Update

Hi ūüôā ¬†How are you?

Well, I’ve not posted in a long time, and there was a gap between my last post and the ones prior.

In short, there are big changes afoot, and nothing has seemed post-worthy to me in a long time.

What changed?  Why, thank you for asking!

In short (again?), I spent 20 years of my life trying to contribute to the evolution of consciousness. ¬†“Let’s change the world for the better!” said my eternally optimistic idealist.

Then something shifted in me.

I realized that Great Order revels in Experience, and in that, All colors of the rainbow are going to manifest and express themselves.  Trying to change the world is like trying to force the whole rainbow to get yellow instead of being what it is.

Suddenly, there’s nowhere to go. ¬†Nothing needs to be ‘fixed’ or ‘changed’. ¬†Evolution Is. ¬†Great Order, Is.

“What about dying babies and mass murderers,” you ask, aghast? ¬†Sure. ¬†What about Corporate abuses of power, Political corruption, human corruption for that matter? ¬†What about Nibiru and the coming Ice Age and devastating freak weather threatening our crops, our food production and our very survival? ¬†What about that awful Rap music?!!

*sigh* ¬†Do what you need to do, until you can’t do it anymore. ¬†If you need to resist gays, or Republicans, or Liberals, or fear of death or whatever, then you¬†haven’t yet learned that what you resist persists. ¬†That’s ok. ¬†Keep doing what you need to do until you can’t do it anymore.

Me, I’ve realized that the Face of Love (God, Source, Emergence) has universal core values under every Creation, and I’m more interested in seeing how Emergence chooses to Express Herself/Myself and to grok the underlying core value (and support That, which obsoletes distorted expressions) than to push against things in the ever re-cycling “revolution” attitude where the oppressed become the new oppressors.

Yes, it’s true that not all of Creation is Life Serving. ¬†Yes, it’s true that I still tend toward Life Serving choices for the most part.

But I also see that nothing is universally “right” or “wrong” – even water can kill you in certain contexts. ¬†I do what I can to interrupt¬†“should-ing on” myself or others, and¬†look instead to support the Core Values. ¬†In those Expressions of Self I see only Love. ¬†Sometimes, Life makes Love¬†As War. ¬†It just Is.

So instead of should-ing or pushing against it, I now see all of Great Order in terms of Her vibrationally opposing sine waves, antinodes and nodal points.  Nothing is fixed, everything is in motion, evolving, being magnitized toward its resolution (nodal point) or into more vivid Autonomy and Experiencing and Self-Expression and Uniqueness (anti-nodes).

We don’t have to push the river to get it to bend a certain way – the river will find her own resolution.

Does that mean I sit on the couch all day and eat BonBons? ¬†No, I knit. ¬†Ha just kidding. ¬†No, I’m not advocating non-action. ¬†Chop Wood / Carry Water still applies. ¬†My 3D aspect still earns income to direct 3rd Dimensional energy as I wish. ¬†I still actively engage¬†my 4th Dimensional and Long Body growth / evolution. ¬†I still act, when needed, in protective use of force if that is called for. ¬†If I’m cornered I still pull out Kali to Kick Ass. ¬†I still create when I am moved to create.

However, I¬†also¬†don’t add to the ambient noise of human activity just because my immature shadow-aspects have a knee-jerk reaction to spit forth. ¬†I’m more aware of the ambient field, the scattered noise, the distortions, and the reality¬†that all Expressions are inherently full of Distortion (points away from the nodal point, looking for resolution).

So now my choices are coming out of a different Being.

Thank goodness. ¬†It’s way less stressful here.

And if this doesn’t make sense to you, that’s ok.

So yeah. That’s where I’m at.

ūüėČ

– Maya

Rules For Relating

My 20s and 30s were all about ruling people in or out of my life. I had very overt, and very subtle, ways I would do that. ¬†Now, I’m learning I want different – I want to live in practicing, “How do we find each other (again)”?

Alternative to “Bad Shadow Government Illuminati” Narrative

I have lots of friends campaigning against “shadow government” or against “the Illuminati” or against “the reptilians” or “the bankers” or “the powers that be”.

I am very educated to these narratives. I get it. And –

I would like to propose a more generative perspective.

After human beings were created, a point came where we were provided the space to be “self-governing” (self, meaning, “the local human population governing itself”).

Of course, at that time not all individuals were prepared – or psychologically equipped – for this task. Some people have longer cognitive lines than others. Some people have more agentic inclinations than others. So, necessarily, a small number of the “locals” took control, and started a not-so-complex chess game of politics, governing behind the scenes, currency and currency manipulations, etc… The masses, for centuries, have been the pieces on this chess board, moved by debt obligations, moved by fear and threats, moved by political maneuvering and moved by spin.

However, necessarily, we are now reaching a time in human history and human development where more and more of the chess pieces (the humans on the planet) are waking up, seeing the larger context of the chess board, and saying, “Wait a minute Chess Players – You’re not the boss of me!” More and more of us are growing up and emotionally maturing enough to learn that we (the masses) can govern ourselves.

As a human race, true “self governance” is not about a small group controlling the rest. True “self governance” is about each one of us, each individual, waking up to be able to govern ourselves.

Part of that is learning how to do “power with” instead of “power over”. The chess players did “power over” the rest. The people collaborating in open-source projects, collaborating on the Internet, and collaborating on crowd-sourcing, community resiliency, restorative justice and permaculture are all people embodying their learning how to do “power with”.

People doing “power with” realize that we are interconnected, and only going to thrive when we work together with each other and with the system as a whole. People who do “power over” think of themselves as separate, and everyone else and everything else as Enemy to be conquered and controlled.

History is teaching us that Power Over is a tragic strategy that falls apart in the long run. Power With allows us to adaptively generate solution on-the-fly – dynamic steering.

While we embody “us/them” villanization – when we push against a government figure, or a batch of “Illuminati”, or against a batch of “reptilians”, we continue to perpetuate the pawn mentality by playing into the victim triangle. The oppressed rise to become the new oppressors.

Only when we stand in our own sovereignty – and educate ourselves – can we evolve to our fullest capacity and our birth right – fully actualizing our capacities.

Standing in our sovereignty, for me, isn’t about pushing against the old structures. For me, the sovereign is visibile in us when we come together to create new systems that render the old systems obsolete – effortlessly and naturally.

So while I appreciate the attempt to “educate” that innocently moves people to villanize our government or our history or our shadow government or our ancient ancestors, I don’t subscribe to the villanizing, us/them behaviors.

I want to live more emotionally mature, more grown-up, and more productive than that.

Rather, I recognize that we are capable of waking each other up to our true capacities by moving forward into new structures.

That is who I am. I am a culture creator. I am a stand for the new structures. I am a creative being interested in contributing to the new systems (which will naturally and effortlessly obsolete the old).

So I propose that we put our energies into the Now and the Future and create the self-governing, system-awake, wholistic structures and environments that we want. This is a far, far more productive use of our energies than rehearsing the hatred of the old systems we are pushing against.

In hopes of inspiring your generative action to create forward,
Maya

 

Today’s Practice: Loving – Surrendering my Contain-er

Surrendering my Contain-er…as if my love were within me, contained, to be dolled out only in the right circumstances and to the right people…surrendering she who controls and meters out the when and the how much…surrendering my Contain-er.

My new Practice – similar to ‘random acts of kindness’ – a kind of deliberate, willful mischief of infusing random moments and random passers-by with heart, love, inspiration, invitations to play in the moment…asking people their stories until their light shines…hugging random strangers who look lonely…inviting a solitary person to join us at our table or movie seat…surprising people with a depth of loving kindness beyond what they imagined socially available…making good trouble…deliberate, willful mischievous acts of loving.

…sending out ripples of this energy into the pool of Great Order…

There’s no where to go, nowhere to be, nothing to get done. Why not give this kind of love? I give up my Contain-er. If once upon a time my Observer watched and felt sad at what I saw, this is my Observer standing as Creator, sending ripples of mischievous Love into the field.

What else is there better to do with a lifetime?

Mini Rocket Stove

My first time, my first try…but here it is, the photos from my experiment to make a Mini Rocket Stove. ūüôā


Practicing – The Love of Fear

Extracted from my personal journal – unedited….

See also my post on 5 Ways To Get Free From Fear.

While most of my adult life’s practice has included leaning into fear, that’s been with the intent to eradicate it.

In this set of notes, it’s not about eradicating fear, but about embracing it, embodying it as Sacred Theater, and allowing myself to Have It.

Hope my notes support you as fully as this has supported me.

Maya

Notes from Fear realizations

This all started when Gareth sent me the quotes about Holographic Universe, reminding me to pay attention to the smallest detail as information.

When I asked what detail that was, the answer came, “I’m scared.”

When I explored the, “I’m scared. So what, how is that an insight into the greater whole,” suddenly all sorts of insights opened up.

Thank Goodness for Rumi holding container, feeding moments back, digesting them with me, and deepening the conversation of how to Play Fear as Theater…

NOTES:

– Make love to “scared”

– Invite her or she shadow expresses!

Рmy 6!! fear!! my kink…fear (somewhat)….my favorite holiday Рhalloween…. I am hard-wired to process Fear for the Great Body!

– Rumi – play lover to fear // Maya – play fear

– have “I’m scared”

– My fibroids, no competence — oppty to HAVE scared.

– Fear is Fire, it TEMPERS your steel.

– Can’t have duality without fear. Where there is position, there is love / cherishing and a desire for self-preservation. The opposite duality can feel like a threat to self-preservation. Fear is a face of love and cherishing for what one holds.

– Fear is a face of Love.

– There’s nothing to fear but the SUPPRESSING of fear.

– The ultimate war is Love vs/Fear. And you can’t have one without the other (like two sides of a coin). Fear is Love. Love breeds fear. Just like a coin, the only way to have equilibrium is to let them spin together, dance together. Like the coin spinning on the table, you find equilibrium in the middle of the dance where both faces of love have themselves and express themselves fully.

– Have “I’m scared” like a lover. Give the fear over to the Earth, give it down into Gaia.

– Do Theater of Fear as a vehicle for letting Her have Her Self expression.

– Love / Heaven. Fear / Hell / Hell Fire!


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